((My comments in double parentheses - Homer)) SESSION NOTES 3/3/94 ACT - 50 3 March 1994 Copyright (C) 1994 Homer Wilson Smith Redistribution rights granted for non commercial purposes. Ran solo, on meter, effort mostly, "Is there a Rage/Regret Cycle?" "Is there a withhold on a Rage/Regret cycle?" "Is there a missed withhold on a Rage/Regret cycle?" "Is the missed withhold a CLOSE CALLS, a WONDERS or a STILL KNOWS?" "Is there a Mutual missed withhold on a Rage/Regret cycle?" (Meaning both Parent and Child have it at the same time.) "Is there a Co Excused missed withhold on a Rage/Regret cycle?" Meaning, as a son in this life, and as a mother in a past life: 1.) "Did you have a Rage/Regret cycle on a son as a mother, in a past life?" (DED) 2.) "Does your mother have a Rage/Regret cycle on you as a son, in this life?" (DEDEX) 3.) "Did your son have a Rage/Regret cycle on you as a mother, in a past life?" (MOTIVATOR) 4.) "Do you have a Rage/Regret cycle on your mother as a son, in this life?" (OVERT) Then PRIOR to any Rage/Regret cycle, "What is the Basic Crime between Parent and Child?" "Is there something between Mother and Son?" "Tell me about you as a son." "Tell me about your mother as a mother." "Tell me about you as a mother." "Tell me about your mother as a son." All terminals were run, Mother, Father, Son and Daughter in all combinations, with concentration on those given above. Case consists of an encysted Rage/Regret Cycle, preceded by an Overt Provocation against the one enraged. Specifically a CO EXCUSED Missed Withhold on a Rage/Regret cycle, which means what the child suffered at the hands of his parents he did as a parent to his own children in a past life. The parent does something crass. The child is enraged. Later the child regrets the rage and either does or does not make up with the parent. If he does, then its over. If he doesn't, then he will develop case. The Rage is certain, the Regret may be doubted, leaving the person in a quandary as to whether or not they ought to feel regret. Until they are sure they should feel regret, they won't. Regret that isn't felt is held in around the heart area, producing heart attacks. "Who do you still want to murder?" (Rage) "Are you withholding an apology?" (Regret) If the regret is doubted, the person may wonder if the other person knows that they are withholding a possible apology, the withhold of apology thus becomes missed. Prior to the Rage/Regret cycle, there will be a moment of Total Irresponsibility on the part of the preclear towards what provoked the Rage in the first place. It's a "How did this get into MY game?" kind of feeling. Very very deep and very serious. It breaks the Sovereignty and Equanimity of the Child, and the child breaks the Chalice with the parent, and then later regrets it, sometimes instantaneously afterwards. The Parent can have Rage/Regret cycles towards the Child too. The parent can also be withholding regret and doubt about apologies towards the child. Both parent and child can be in this state towards each other, they will tend to orbit around each other looking to see if the other knows that they may have an apology coming to them all the while trying to GET the one they want for themselves. It is unclear whether Parent or Child develops the first Rage/Regret cycle towards each other. If the child feels the parent owes them an apology for an earlier Rage/Regret cycle on the part of the parent, an apology which is not forthcoming, then if the child develops his own Rage/Regret cycle, he will withhold his own apology to his own detriment from the parent because the parent is withholding theirs. The parent will do the same thing to the child if the child has the prior unadmitted apology. The Rage/Regret cycle hangs up in the unadmitted apology because of the earlier point of Total No Responsibility for the provoking party and the loss of Class when the Chalice is broken during the moment of Rage. It's the first time you decide to not love the other party for ever and to destroy them or ruin them permanently rather to merely teach them a lesson and bring them around to rights. The intention towards repair of friendship is GONE. "Class is an attitude, that ALL should live forever and be my friend." A child who is wronged will often ruin HIMSELF first to show his parents he means business, such is the love of the child. When the parents respond with further crassness, the child will then try to ruin the parents. No matter how bad the parents have been, the child will ultimately regret what he did. If he fails to get off the apology in good order to SOMEONE, he will develop justifications and case. Case IS merely sticking, persisting and accumulating justifications. It's all those horrible things everyone ever did to you and more that fully accounts for why you don't have to give up that apology. The fastest way to ruin a person is to refuse their apology when they mean it. It is an overt act which itself is later regretted, and the person later often suffers the motivator of having his apology refused for having refused an apology. Refusing to give or receive an apology that is due is No Auditing. The way to happiness is a true confession. Why oh why doesn't Chris like me? Homer ----------------------------------------------------------------------- Homer Wilson Smith This file may be found at homer@rahul.net ftp.rahul.net/pub/homer/act/act50.memo Posted to usenet newsgroup: alt.clearing.technology Date: Sat, 05 Mar 94 00:19:40 EST From: CTM@CORNELLC Subject: Session Notes 3/4/94 To: clear-l@ualtavm Ran solo, on the meter, mostly efforts, "Tell me about you as a son." (me as a son.) "Tell me about your mother as a son." (me as a son.) "Tell me about you as a mother." (me as a mother in past) "Tell me about your son as a mother." (me as a mother in past) with emphasis on visualizing beingness of son looking at beingness of mother, and then AS a mother, the beingness of the mother looking at beingness of son. Unbelievable. Someday I may actually be able to breath again. Homer